se plaindre

all right, so my last blog was insanely long. this one will be shorter, but full of complaints. first i think i have a serious case of eyestrain. this is what i get for trying to be responsible - i was feeling bad first half of the semester because i have a strong tendency to slack off and i thought, well, this is GRAD school now and there's no time for that, so every free second is being responsibly spent grading papers or reading books, or trying not to puke on the bus. so now i have a headache like, every night. the nights we spend in provo have been especially sucky because no painkillers, so the other morning i got up and walked to the faraway smiths at 6 am and bought a huge thing of advil (what lame-o party did she just come from?) which i keep in my bag and am afraid of forming an addiction to.

heres another queer thing. sleep is eluding me, headache or no. i LOVE to sleep. i have always, always loved to sleep. nothing will get me up before 11 on weekends. until this semester. it must be stress or something but ill be really tired but once i lay down, i can't even shut my eyes without forcing them. and last weekend i woke up at 7:30 and didn't want to go back to sleep. WEEKEND! and this is before DST! its not even crunch time in the semester yet. ah well, five weeks and its over for now.

i love being in grad school, and im sure it's where i should be, but my life was a lot more balanced working part time at the dancing moose. yoga, running, healthy food, cleaning house, and reading books in the morning, kiddie babes in the afternoon, and sweet times with my honey in the evening. now that is a life. now it's two hour public transportation commute before sunup, analysis and deconstruction all day long, and crashing headache and eye hurt when i hit the pillow. it must be worth it, right?

speaking of my kiddie babes, my old coworker told me they still ask about me. my tots! ai mi corazon!