hmm. you know how sometimes you get an idea of what you want to do, and you get all hyped up for it, and assume that's what you'll do, and then something happens so you can't do that thing? and you feel like the rugs swept out from under you?
roller coaster grad school.
so i decided probably mid october that get a phd is something id like to do. ive had some small encouragement from at least one professor outside of byu. but then somehow this week i got a lot of stronger discouragement from profs both inside and out. not that i couldnt get a phd, they say, brainswise, but that my program, comparative studies, is so general that no phd programs are gonna want me. ive been looking at comp lit programs, but turns out their language requirements are so heavy that id have better luck with them if id majored in french.
french! a french major is more useful than mine!
so i got nowhere to go. ive been recommended toward some english programs, but id have to take the gre subject test and im SO DONE WITH GRE. i haven't inquired too closely into art history programs, but i haven't touched the stuff since my undergrad. what have you been doing these two years then, you say? oh mostly philosophy i guess. which again i dont have the background to go to school for. and eco-criticism. but then that's a literary discipline, and literature doesnt want me cause i only speak two languages other than english.
i guess its time to go home and have a baby. er something.
im disappointed.
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love the last 2nd to last line. I keep thinking all the "nos" in my life mean a similar thing.
yeah! babies everywhere!
Well, all I can say is, "Justin was worth it."
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